by Morris » Thu Apr 13, 2017 6:47 am
April 13, 2017
Thanks Anne. I am glad to be back posting again and eating right again. Feeling miserable is not worth eating the junk, besides it does not taste as good as fruits, veggies and grains, and legumes.
Other than my hands, most of the aches are gone, but I am stacking wood and that is hard on my hands and wrists and back. Trying to limit it to an hour or two, but it is just nice to be by myself and listening to music while I work.
I get frustrated a lot because my hubby won't help me in any way. I know he is in pain all the time, but often when I come in then I still have to do the housework and cook the meals. I notice that he even waits to eat until I come in to make my meal so I will make him something also. Honestly, the man may hurt, but he needs to do things to help him be self-sufficient. Seriously, I am being too nice here, he needs to get off his a**. If I prepare our meal ahead of time, he won't even heat it up for me, BUT he is able to cook his garbage food.
I have learned to pick my battles. It does not work for me to say anything about how I feel because according to him it is all my fault. He accepts no responsibility. As a matter of fact, he constantly tells me to stop helping our daughters when they ask for help. He cannot see that he is the one stressing me out. Once, he told me to stop helping them because then I get too tired to do things for him. Wow! Thanks for caring!
A while back, I read the book Potatoes, not Prozac and in there the author explained that there is a chemical imbalance that for some reason causes a person not to accept responsibility for their actions and place the blame on others. I thought -- wow! I am reading about my hubby here.
He is great at telling everyone what to do but never seems to heed to his own advice. He would lecture everyone he met and would listen to him about eating healthy. Yet his choices are always meat based and fat-ladened sauces. Once I asked him why, since he knows the importance of eating healthy, how come he does not make healthy choices in the meals he makes himself. His answer was because I did not make all his meals for him. He always has an excuse and it's always some one else's fault.
OK, I guess you can see I am still frustrated. It will never go away as long as I am with hubby. I don't think he is going to change. It has been this way from the beginning. Next month is our 37 year anniversary. I need to deal with it differently, eating crappy food makes me feel crappy.
I am redoing the Beck Diet Solution to help me with my thoughts. It is not a diet, but the thinking process. It expands on chapter 12 in the Maximum Weight Loss book. It has a lot of the same ideas, but on a day-by-day basis by doing a daily checklist and adding a new exercise each day. It is a good way to establish a habit because it has you do the same thing over and over and over. It also helps me with my mindset. The exercises help me be more aware of my "why" and what I am putting in my mouth and when.
I am on Day 4 and dropped 2 pounds just by cutting out a lot of the junk that I was eating. Snacking is my problem. I am trying to grab fruit or veggies instead of chips and cookies. That is where my excess calories come from.
What I have been eating:
coffee
peanut butter toast with jelly
bananas
oranges
blueberries
nuts, seed and fruit mixture
I made some cauliflower "meat" inspired by Chuck Underwood, Brand New Vegan, and turned it into a gravy. One of my favorite dishes used to be hamburger gravy. It was a staple for me growing up. This mixture uses cauliflower, mushroom and walnuts. I am learning that I can make a lot of different things with this mixture. I served it over mashed potatoes.
peas
corn
salad, lots of salad, with peppers, onions, tomatoes.
I am trying to drink more water. In doing so, I am waking up feeling like I actually slept in throughout the night. It feels good to feel rested.
Well, the weather is warming up and the mosquitoes will be out soon, so in goes the garlic in my dishes, that means --whew! stinky me!
Nancy (aka Morris)
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