December 15, 2107
I weighed myself this morning and I am down to the lowest I have been in a while. I have been working on finishing the Tortoise Creep Virtual Race so i have been running on the treadmill a bit more than if I had no goal in mind. That extra motivation and the ifit maps I have been choosing helped. The maps that I have been choosing have lots of incline on the route. (In case you are wondering, my treadmill is ifit compatible and it uses google maps for workout routes. The program increases and decreases the incline according to the map) I have been doing the Machu Picchu Climb, I have one more to go and that one will have a steady max-out the incline.
I was not compliant yesterday, after my run on the treadmill, I had to meet my daughter in town so I left without eating breakfast unless you want to count the Belvita Breakfast Cookie pack I grabbed as I went out the door. Then after that I was shopping with hubby and we ended up going out to eat. I ended up ordering a veggie omelet (egg white and no cheese) hashbrowns and wheat toast. The waitress remembered me and she added the "you want no oil". I don't think the cook complied because it was oily. Then we stopped at a candy shop. I know, I know. But I have a coupon buy one piece get one free. But hubby could not just get one, he ordered 1/2 pound. I bought just 2 truffles, which I have yet to eat.
I wish I could say that I had so much self control and did not eat the chocolate. But, my sabotaging hubby buys my favorite candy and hands me the bag. Then he shares his chocolates with me. I let him sabotage me so it is my fault just as much as it is his. Over the years, I learned to sort of go with the flow because if I call him out on it, he'll do it more. He leans more toward being passive aggressive toward me.In the past, he would go out of his way to do what I asked him not to do, so I keep quiet.
This is also why he offered my his candy. As we left the shop, I told the lady that if I weren't on a diet, (although I know this way is not a diet but a lifestyle), I would have walked out with a pound instead of just 2 pieces. So, what does hubby do? He insists I try what he bought even when I replied, "No, it's yours, you eat it." But he kept at it. I get so tired of fighting him and frustrated. Then I get frustrated and turn to food. It's a vicious cycle.
Yep, I am not sure if you guessed it,but that night I baked me some brownies (although my chocolate truffles are still in the bag). However, the recipe was from Helyn's kitchen:
https://helynskitchen.com/2013/03/black-bean-brownie-bites-flour-free-vegan.html Other than the sugar and chips, not too bad ingredients. I added walnuts and used unrefined (whatever that means) coconut sugar. I justified it by saying I need to eat my beans for the day.
The Engine 2 people are going to do the 7 Day Rescue again Jan 3, I want to make it through the week this time. I have 18 days to get my mindset in the right place. Hubby has already told me he does not want to do it with me. So, I also need to get my mindset ready to deal with opposing attitude. I mean, the man is 100 pounds overweight, constantly in pain and won't change his eating or up his activity. He lectures others on eating healthy, but he thinks eating healthy is only about eating non GMO. And the things he tells other people --- yet, he'll eat whatever he wants. No practice what he preaches.
That is why I don't tell others how they should eat, because I don't eat well myself. On facebook there is this post going around where it is who is on Santa's Naughty list and it will pick people on your friends list and give one the naughty, the naughtier, and the naughtiest. My dad did it and my profile popped up as the naughtiest - Why? Because I ate Santa's cookies. -- I laughed because when I visit my parents my hand is always in their cookie jar.
It is about progress not perfection.