March 29, 2019
Yesterday was a bust for eating on plan. I had to bring my granddaughter to school and that threw my routine off - not that I have one, but my morning coffee was interrupted. Not complaining though because I signed up for it. She is going to come to running class once a week now - so I guess I better get moving earlier into my routine.
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That yellow split soup makes awesome leftovers - for lunch yesterday I had a huge bowl of it with some corn bread and Brussels Sprouts.
Then hubby had a meeting in town and expected me to drive - so we ate at Perkins and both ordered the potato pancakes.
Then I gave in to cravings while waiting - for no reason other than just because I wanted to eat that Peanut Buster Parfait, Corn Chips and Potato chips -- I feel horrible this morning and I am hoping I have it out of my system. Because April 1st, I am starting anew. I will practice these next few days.
I am letting my frustration get to me - I worked in the cabin yesterday morning cleaning up some jars that we emptied from canning that was old, too old to want to eat it. It took me all morning to wash and dry the jars. I went up to have some lunch and hubby sits down and talks and talks and talks. I started the conversation about something and instead of building on it, he turns the topic to something he heard and then somehow the topic became all about him. It was so hard for me to enjoy my meal because my mind was so distracted. Sometimes, after I spend hours working and I sit down for a meal, I want to enjoy it in silence, but it seems to conflict with his need to talk.
It is just that hubby and I are on the opposite ends of the spectrum in our personalities - he is an extrovert and loves having attention, while I prefer to be quiet and observe the surroundings. He has more of a need to talk while I prefer those comfortable silence times. Even if I have my ear buds in my ears (pretending to be listening to my mp3 player), he still talks and talks and talks. It wouldn't be so bad if we could have actual conversations, but nope, he has to take control and be like the energizer bunny and go on and on and on and on and on and on and on...and it always turns to him and some accomplishment that he did - and I must say that I have already heard it a couple of times before -
Man, I hope I get this frustration out of my system. I know he is not going to change. I should mention that our earlier years of marriage we were always apart - his job had him away from home a lot of the time. I liked that way, I had more "me" time and the times we were together were different because he wasn't dealing with chronic pain all the time. Plus I think he is getting over some of the stress/anger that D1 and SIL caused us and I am still struggling with letting go. But my takeaway from yesterday is "Eat Crap Feel Like Crap!" I was feeling so good til I let my frustrations get the best of me.
I spent some time outdoors yesterday. In anticipation for spring weather - I cleaned out the fire pit and the little shelter I have set up on top of the hill we use for sliding - I spotted a quail checking it out. I wonder if it is nesting close by, if so, I hope I did not disturb it too much.
I saw a post on the Engine 2 Rescue facebook page with Amy Mackee's post on camping food mixes with dehydrated foods. I have some of those packages of beans and veggies - I am going to prepare some of the meals she has provided and then use her recipes as a guide and get my meals ready for camping. Her combinations looked so much better than the sample recipes given with the product. I want to go to a site where I have to hike in, but I am already wimping out and am thinking of using the main campground as a base and just day hike out to wherever the campsites are just to check them out. I pick the weekdays for my camping because most people camp on the weekends so the parks are pretty quiet during the week. I am "almost alone in the woods" that way. I think I will pick a few hike-in spots where I'll be away from my car to mimic the hike to the campsite feeling and to get used to the being more in the woods type of feeling.
I watched a video on youtube where she was on the show Alone season 3 and 4. I have not seen the show but I like her videos - she is so happy and always has a smile on her face. She ends her videos with "Get Outside and Be Happy." That is some good advice that I intend to take.
What I plan to eat today:
coffee
riced cauliflower oatmeal with berries
Yellow split pea soup - I think that what is left will need to go into the freezer.
salad
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I need to work on my snacking and instead of grabbing junk, I out to grab some fruit and/or vegetables.