by limberone » Wed Oct 25, 2006 8:39 am
Hello! I'm new to this board. I just wrote the letter below to my sister yesterday. Then I found the McDougall website -- what a fabulous idea! I should be posting here! In the letter below, I am talking about my fourth baby. I'm 5'8" and 36 years old.
He is 14 weeks old now. At 11 weeks old, I was back to the same weight (180) I weighed when I got pregnant. I'm not impressed with this, however, as I now still need to lose 40 pounds. Although I would like to lose 55 pounds in total, I am setting intermediate goals.
Goal # 1 = 155 pounds (loss of 25 pounds)
Goal # 2 = 140 pounds (loss of 40 pounds)
Goal # 3 = 125 pounds (loss of 55 pounds)
I've known for many months that I am overweight, but for some stupid reason (or perhaps it was a good reason...I am not sure yet), I decided to try on my size 10 CK jeans this morning. Not only do they NOT fit, I cannot even get them on! I can get them up to about the top of the 3/4 mark of the thigh, and that is all! When I look at these jeans from the back while they are empty, they look rather roomy ( i.e., rather large!), and they do not even come close to being able to fit! I am horrified! Simply horrified! I told myself months ago that I would not go through this winter wearing leggings (because that is all that fits), but here I am, on the cold days this month, wearing leggings, because that is all that fits. At least the maternity jeans are just too big, but they should be too big!
Right now, there are just under 10 weeks left in 2006. I do not want to weigh this much ever again! I do not want to weigh this much when 2007 gets here. I've been reading several of John McDougall's books (he proposes a vegan diet with no added fat in the form of oils, nuts, seeds, avocados). I used his books 10 years ago when I lived in Denton, and I was about 135 pounds (and very small) then. The size 10 CK jeans would have been very loose on me that year. But I bought them in 1998 when I was at the Nordstrom in Indianappolis. Anyway, I stray from the topic.
I am starting this very minute to eat what is right. I have been eating 1000s of extra calories in junk food for too many years. For dinner tonight, I will either make something from one of the McDougall books, or I will defrost one of the soups from the freezer. I am so living in denial that I'm not really that big, and I justify every little (and big) bite or sip with stupid reasons. Enough is enough -- I am insane for eating the same things over and over again and hoping for different results ( i.e. weight loss).
Since I have so much to lose (and possibly so much self-esteem to gain), I am planning to lose 2 pounds a week for the next ten weeks, and when the new year gets here, I will weigh 160. Then I will re-evalute and see where to go from there.