Thanks @Drew_ab! Wasn't sure if anyone other than me was reading this. But now that you have, here is some more information about me
I am 34, Male, living in Bay Area. I have been overweight/obeese for the majority of my adult life. I have also been trying to get healthier for the most of my adult life. I have had moderate success losing weight in the past, but have been losing and gaining back the same 20-25 lbs over the last 15+ years.
I spent my childhood and teenage years in India eating fresh, home cooked vegetarian meals. Ate without quantity restrictions and was still underweight. When I moved to the US at 17, the the calorie density of the food went way up and so did my weight. I didn't know it at the time, but my hunger drive was being manipulated by attractive, tasty food that was cheap and always available. So I ate myself from underweight to obesity in the span for two years all while thinking that I was winning at life (much like the story Dr. Lisle tells of a bird on heroine). That was nearly two decades ago and I have struggled to take that weight off since then.
Other than the weight loss, there are other motivations for being on MWL in 2020. I have a family history of hypertension, diabetes, and heart disease. Going into the second half of my thirties, I am increasingly paranoid that a heart attack or diabetes diagnosis is just around the corner. I'd like to live my life without the worry about dropping dead the next day.
Secondly, my thoughts are constantly consumed by either food or weight loss. I constantly find myself on pendulum either thinking what tasty, mindblowing foodgasm I can have next (one last time!) or feeling guilty about my unhealthy habits. Losing weight has been a goal for a long time. I would like to achieve that goal and move on with my life once and for all. I would like to get to stage where I can be comfortable with food as a fuel (as opposed to fun) that makes it possible to pursue other things in life. Currently, it feels like I am either living to eat or living to get healthy. Neither one is a desirable to me.
I have attended a 3-day intensive weekend program with Dr. M and his team. I have also read and watched all available content on the topic (what I said earlier about thoughts/mind being consumed by food or health). My main struggle has been and will be adherence to what I know. I am using this forum to hold myself more accountable on that front in 2020.
My stats:
Height: 6' 2"
Starting weight: 257 lbs
BMI: 33
BP: 122/86
Cholesterol: 196 Total, 130 LDL
Triglyceride: 105