by StarchBeet » Mon Mar 14, 2011 7:05 am
What a weekend of challenges. I'm not good with stress and I don't have emergency plans. I was just going to pick up my youngest son and I was locked out of the house. We had to drive an hour and a half to get a spare key. Then my door key was missing so I had to travel back again for the other key.
This trip was supposed to be one hour. We didn't get back until about 11 pm. So my mind was spinning from trying to figure out how to manage my time, plot my trip around rush hour traffic, get gas, feed us, etc. I stupidly pulled into a fast food place to get water and a "large soda" my son ordered. I was so thirsty and was getting hungry. I must have pre diabetic condition and I actually crave sugar. In my stressed-out mind I actually told myself that I was going to drink a "coke". The last time I had a soda was 8 months ago. But this soda was an extra LARGE soda..which has to be close to 3 or more cokes.
Then we came to a chinese restaurant about an hour later, that we used to love, and is very popular. I ordered a dish of Choy Sum no oil and (stupidly because I was hungry by that time)a spring roll. So by the evening i had stressed out, driven for hours, eaten oil and sugar and got home late.
I woke up in the night with what I best describe to be a panic attack that started in my gut with terrible pains. I actually had this reaction when I ate two pieces of the chocolate tofu pie for Thanksgiving. The pain was familiar and I began breathing deeply and slowly through great pain. I started to feel so panicky and could barely breathe. It felt like my stomach would explode. This lasted for close to an hour.
Last week I found out our insurance had been retroactively canceled. So the last three visits (myself and two kids visits-one was at Johns Hopkins) I'll have to pay out of pocket completely. With that monetary realization I found myself in the middle of the night, in pain, feeling like I was going to pass out and die and unable to call for help.
Saturday I felt week, dull, sick. I ate some potatoes with some beans I'd cooked in slow cooker on Friday. Sunday I made Chinese soup with nappa cabbage, bok choy, leeks, peppers and garlic. I had this for lunch and dinner, along with some rice I added.
I can't believe I was so out of it that I drank (size of three) sodas and then topped it with oily spring rolls (the Choy Sum may have had oil too, as well as the rice). I am not able to tolerate either without serious repercussions. I can't verify if I have low blood sugar, or diabetes or something more nefarious until I can get the insurance straight. I can't tell if that will happen.
So, I need to plan for serious weight loss of the last 30-40 pounds so I can get beyond experiencing any more panic attacks brought on by sugar or what ever that horrible experience is. I also need to swear off sugar and even fruit. I bought oranges, cherries and berries last week so I will not buy any more when those are gone.
I need some sleep and I will have rice and greens today. I still have potatoes made also. Time to heal, again.
Last edited by StarchBeet on Wed Mar 16, 2011 3:39 pm, edited 2 times in total.