I don’t feel I had a good week staying on plan... Yesterday I ate chocolate my husband gave me, and I ate a high fat and sodium laden dinner so I’m choosing to not weigh. I think it would be too disheartening – not motivating.
Binge eating – I’m not sure what is considered binge eating but a couple of times this week I have eaten higher fat food past satiation.
I’m not interested in fresh veggies as a snack. They are not appealing (previously they are very appealing – the freshness and juiciness…)
Being stressed hasn’t helped. While I had some great moments making good decisions when I was out of the house and hungry, I had other moments when I made poor choices. I had more stress than usual this week which caused me to not get a good night’s sleep for several nights.
Lacking motivation. Being tired and craving food because I’ve allowed super tasty (fat, sugar, salt) food to creep back into my diet.
I haven’t planned my meals in advance this week the way I normally do. I haven’t exercised as much either. I’ve had to deal with a real sick dog. It has consumed a large part of my time and created stress around trying to get work accomplished and get enough sleep.
I’ve started the habit of grabbing a few bites of my husband’s food, again! A hard habit to break. When I started this WOE I had trouble with crackers and chips mostly. We figured out ways to help me with those foods. Lately I’ve started dipping into his “cheese drawer” in the refrigerator… We can’t get a separate refrigerator. I need to build up my resolve to NOT OPEN THAT DRAWER!
So, I’ve got a lot of issues on my mind. Many disappointing moments. I’m tempted to stop posting because I feel like such a failure and I’m sure people reading these posts are sick of hearing my struggling story. I was encouraged by the success story of Jessica Parsons (Mark posted the link on Wednesday this week). Her story resonated with me when she described a plateau in the middle of her weight loss journey. I’ve had a plateau for over a year. It’s very frustrating knowing that I have goals that I choose to break over and over, yet I don’t want to give up. I feel like just a big whiner! I’m hoping I’ll get tired of this up-down-up-down way of life and start succeeding again.
Plan for the upcoming week: Focus on eating until full and stopping. Eat slower. Eat less calorie dense food. I think I get hung up on thinking I haven’t had enough starch food and over stuff myself, so I won’t need to eat again for a while. I’m going to be mindful of this and try to just eat until I’m full. I may eat more times throughout the day.
Each week I get a sense of renewed energy after reading everyone’s story.
[b]Mark and Goose[/b], thank you both for your time, energy, and thoughtfulness in providing so many helpful comments, advice, and guidance to help and encourage us to find our path. I appreciate your effort!! I’ll just keep showing up, hanging my head in shame until I get sick of myself and start consistently choosing to keep to my intentions.
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