Re: Buns Again
Posted: Thu Feb 08, 2018 10:47 am
Hi Moonlight! thanks for this strong wisdom. I do know the value of allowing the pain. I've experienced healing after pain socked me so hard I literally couldn't stand up...mental pain, not physical, during my divorce...yeah, it was scary and it was SO DIFFICULT but am I ever glad I went through it, because on the other side THAT particular source of pain no longer scares me. It still hurts, but it isn't a burden anymore. it just "is". And that is a wonderful place to be.
In fact, one of the difficult things about this all is how inhuman the attacker seemed. He was like a monster, and in fact my dreams that night were full of him as a monster, or as a perturbed animal. I love people, and I value human beings as HUMAN...made in God's image, worthy of respect and dignity...but not this guy. He was horrible, and he remains horrible in my mind. Not "deeply wounded and to be pitied" but EW GET HIM AWAAAAAY! that is not a good place to be, and it is something I'll have to work through.
So, there is a lingering low level stress from that trauma on Sunday night, plus work has been a bit edgy this week. Yesterday was one of "those days" with difficult calls, bossy bosses at stressful rushed meetings, unhappy coworkers, and feeling a tiny bit "thrown under the bus" by a team lead who remembers some things differently than I do, and a software system that nobody likes because IT SUCKS.
And that's enough of that. It isn't much fun feeling that build up in my neck and shoulders, but I don't have to let it affect me. I'll just do my job and keep a low profile today. I got finished with a kind of largish project yesterday so today should be a breeze, task-wise. Morale-wise...hm. Just breathe, eh? And remember the value of gratefulness. I know that I can literally change my mind by thinking about the wonderful blessings abounding in my life. After a good cry
so...last night I made Congee rice, using brown rice. OMG so good! One cup of brown rice, 10 cups of liquid (water and vegetable broth) plus two chunks of fresh ginger and some salt and about 2 hours of slow cooking turned out a yield of more than six cups of soft, warm, flavorful, gooey rice porridge! And it can go toward a sweet/dessert/breakfast or savory as a dinner or lunch. YUM! I'll do that again for sure! I cut up half a dozen mushrooms, a green onion, and put in a small handful of frozen berries this morning for brekkie. And I'm still thinking about it. Now...so far I'm not hungry again which I expected, it being rice and all...but nope. Not an issue three hours later (and believe me, sometimes with oatmeal I AM hungry by this time in the morning) but we'll see how 10:30 feels. Either way, it is still a luscious, delicious food that I plan on making again.
In fact, one of the difficult things about this all is how inhuman the attacker seemed. He was like a monster, and in fact my dreams that night were full of him as a monster, or as a perturbed animal. I love people, and I value human beings as HUMAN...made in God's image, worthy of respect and dignity...but not this guy. He was horrible, and he remains horrible in my mind. Not "deeply wounded and to be pitied" but EW GET HIM AWAAAAAY! that is not a good place to be, and it is something I'll have to work through.
So, there is a lingering low level stress from that trauma on Sunday night, plus work has been a bit edgy this week. Yesterday was one of "those days" with difficult calls, bossy bosses at stressful rushed meetings, unhappy coworkers, and feeling a tiny bit "thrown under the bus" by a team lead who remembers some things differently than I do, and a software system that nobody likes because IT SUCKS.
And that's enough of that. It isn't much fun feeling that build up in my neck and shoulders, but I don't have to let it affect me. I'll just do my job and keep a low profile today. I got finished with a kind of largish project yesterday so today should be a breeze, task-wise. Morale-wise...hm. Just breathe, eh? And remember the value of gratefulness. I know that I can literally change my mind by thinking about the wonderful blessings abounding in my life. After a good cry
so...last night I made Congee rice, using brown rice. OMG so good! One cup of brown rice, 10 cups of liquid (water and vegetable broth) plus two chunks of fresh ginger and some salt and about 2 hours of slow cooking turned out a yield of more than six cups of soft, warm, flavorful, gooey rice porridge! And it can go toward a sweet/dessert/breakfast or savory as a dinner or lunch. YUM! I'll do that again for sure! I cut up half a dozen mushrooms, a green onion, and put in a small handful of frozen berries this morning for brekkie. And I'm still thinking about it. Now...so far I'm not hungry again which I expected, it being rice and all...but nope. Not an issue three hours later (and believe me, sometimes with oatmeal I AM hungry by this time in the morning) but we'll see how 10:30 feels. Either way, it is still a luscious, delicious food that I plan on making again.