Nothing Good Will Come of Me...
Posted: Sat Jul 09, 2022 7:46 am
...until I lose this gut.
Those words popped into my head about 5 years ago as I was walking through a downtown area and caught a glimpse of my profile in a large store window. I was disgusted with what I saw. That gut... like some kind of grotesque, mutant growth that was leading me around everywhere I went. Bogging me down, sucking the energy out of me.
I wish I could say that was the "before" picture. I wish I could say that reflection in the store window that day was enough to turn me around once and for all. Sadly, I have continued to ride the up and down roller coaster of weight loss insanity since I first joined this forum 13 years ago.
That picture is from 2017 at 260 lbs. That is where I found myself once again last week.
I'm getting too old for this. I want my latter years to be meaningful and enjoyable. I don't want another summer to go by without some significant success. I have not weighed under 200 lbs for the past 27 years.
So I'm back at it. Down 6 lbs in one week. I know what to do. I know how it works if you work it. I've had success in the past. Came within 5 lbs of breaking that 200 lb barrier back in 2013 (yes, I've actually been tracking my weight all these years), but a lifelong struggle with self-defeating behavior, including alcoholism, got the best of me once again. I topped out at 305 lbs in 2018.
So... I'm doing something different this time. Laying it all out here (including the embarrassing truth of that photo) in the hope that some accountability will help make a difference.
Onward and... downward.
Those words popped into my head about 5 years ago as I was walking through a downtown area and caught a glimpse of my profile in a large store window. I was disgusted with what I saw. That gut... like some kind of grotesque, mutant growth that was leading me around everywhere I went. Bogging me down, sucking the energy out of me.
I wish I could say that was the "before" picture. I wish I could say that reflection in the store window that day was enough to turn me around once and for all. Sadly, I have continued to ride the up and down roller coaster of weight loss insanity since I first joined this forum 13 years ago.
That picture is from 2017 at 260 lbs. That is where I found myself once again last week.
I'm getting too old for this. I want my latter years to be meaningful and enjoyable. I don't want another summer to go by without some significant success. I have not weighed under 200 lbs for the past 27 years.
So I'm back at it. Down 6 lbs in one week. I know what to do. I know how it works if you work it. I've had success in the past. Came within 5 lbs of breaking that 200 lb barrier back in 2013 (yes, I've actually been tracking my weight all these years), but a lifelong struggle with self-defeating behavior, including alcoholism, got the best of me once again. I topped out at 305 lbs in 2018.
So... I'm doing something different this time. Laying it all out here (including the embarrassing truth of that photo) in the hope that some accountability will help make a difference.
Onward and... downward.